The old saying goes "The early bird gets the worm" or "The first will be last and the last will be first". Yeah, I know my place but, I sometimes feel like I am in a never ending race and is always trying to prove myself in everything I choose or desire to do. I've always been a dreamer. I rememeber in elementary school I use to day dream and stare at the clock and imagine that if I was not in school I would be "living it up" in a big castle and living the life with no homework or any test to study for. Back then I was thinking creatively, because it made me happy and that was something that no one could take away or criticize me for it.
As a child, I loved to read books that I wasn't forced to read and draw pictures because it made me happy. Back then I didn't have a big circle of friends or even had the thought of having a big circle of them. I guess back then my whole attitude was less friends less drama...Lol!!! I was always the child that always loved helping others or as some people labeled me the "Miss know it all". I didn't care. If I knew something I was going to share it. I was always helping someone either it would be with reading or any subject that someone didn't understand because I've always thought that anyone could learn something if they would just try.
In most cases, people believe that failure is a curse but to me I think it's something grand because it gives us an opportunity to make a change within ourselves so that we can be a better person. I've failed at so many things and beat myself up about it but tomorrow I would have a better attitude about my situation because we don't always get everything perfect on the first try. "You have to make progress in order to have success". I think that is what is wrong with a lot of us is that we put too much pressure on ourselves to please others. Sometimes we put ourselves too far out there because we are trying too hard to be recognized as being perfect. I know myself I have put myself in these situations where I've tried to always be "Miss. Help Somebody" without realizing that everyone that I've been helping has been reaching the benifits while I am being left behind collecting dust. I know now it is my time to explore and branch out to do things that I've always wanted to do. I think art is my outlet into another world that no one can understand but me and all these other creative types of artist. Okay, All this venting is making me hungry so I will be back later. Love, peace, and happiness.
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